Truth is many things. Truth can remind a person of the past present or future. Truth is needed. Truth is wanted. Truth is love. Truth is waiting. Truth is difficult. Truth is being yourself. Truth is you. Truth is me. The truth beholds.
”Sometimes it seem like to tell the truth today is to run the risk of being killed. But if I fall, I’ll fall five feet four inches forward in the fight for freedom. I’m not backing off.”
Fannie Lou Hamer
What I know to be true is that you cannot just change who you are. I thought that if I changed who I was, people would forget about the old Brianna and forget she was ever there. I saw that as my future, being someone else. If I tried that would everyone forget? Would they think the new Brianna was good enough? Would it be like being able to live my life over again not worrying about the past? To tell you the truth, the grass was not any greener on the other side.
I did not like the new me but I did not want to turn back. The life I was living was not any better than the one before. It took my best friend’s knowledge and believing that I was better to realize. I hated me. I still do for those years that I tried to be someone else. It hurt me to see that haunting past. Thanks for telling the truth and getting me through that piece of life that seemed like an evil nightmare.
Brianna
